I think I finally understand what I meant by “I don’t want a relationship” and it took me a long time to figure it out. I don’t want to be tied down. I don’t want to feel like, “oh wait, I have to kiss him before I leave. I need to tell him where I’m going. I need to wait for him after class” etc. I do what I want. I go where I want to go. I hang with who I want even if its just a group of guys. I don’t want to feel that I’m limited in what I can do because I’m not. I hate when I’m in a rush to leave and my bf is just like, “wow I don’t get a kiss” or he just keep walking with me and pull me back. I HATE THAT. Maybe I don’t wanna kiss you. Maybe I’m mad at you. Maybe I’m running late. I want a best friend. Someone who can take my rude comment and not get butt hurt, make rude comments back. I don’t want a lovey dovery relationship where we have to hold hands every single time we’re together. I don’t wanna kiss every time we leave. But simply understand that I love you from the inside even if we are assholes to each other or dont do normal things couple do. I hate relationships Cause I have to satisfied them. I want my freedom. Finding someone who agree to me on this is a mission I will find you one day, eventually.